November 8, 2011
Ramblings
Things have been hectic lately. I’m pretty sure I’m getting overwhelmed by life because I’m not fully diving into the Word and focusing solely on the Lord and his desires. I’m getting caught up in my own problems and worries and thinking less about Christ and more about myself. I know how to fix this. So why can’t I? Why do I keep pushing my quiet times aside in order to “get more stuff done”?
Today one of my friends gave me a ride home after class because I didn’t want to walk in the cold. And when we got to his car, he came to the passenger side and opened the door for me. I stood there stunned for a second. “I can’t believe you did that,” I said. “I don’t think any guy’s ever done that for me.” He looked a little bewildered, shrugged, and said something along the lines of “That’s how it’s supposed to be.” There is hope! There are still gentlemen out there! Chivalry is not dead!
I was really hoping to spend the summer abroad in the mission field. I’ve been praying about it for months. I thought that’s where God was leading me. I told my dad I wanted to spend my summer in another country, and he is REALLY against it. I know that if it all worked out, my dad wouldn’t completely put his foot down and forbid it. But I would be uneasy the whole summer knowing that I was doing something of which he didn’t approve. BUT he gave me is “blessing” to go on a week to 2 week trip over spring break and/or summer. So maybe that’s what the Lord has planned for me? I’m so glad He’s in control and not me. And I’m also blown away by my father and my Father’s love for me. It is something I will truly never understand. It brings me to tears just thinking about it.
